Pride and Joy - closed for siegimtode

   siegimtode

     The dust of this world was cloying.  It was acrid, and fibrous, and carried the tang of metal.  It seemed to sit in his lungs, whip like sandpaper against his plates and sting his eyes with every gust.  The krogan themselves seemed unmoved by it.  The women, some obviously heavy with child beneath their thick bolts of dark fabric, were particularly well-covered, and he envied them their protection against the rasp of sandy particles.

     He had come to monitor the reconstruction of their homeworld, out of professional courtesy to his new allies and a personal need to step foot on the planet that had claimed his son’s life.  Some part of him wanted to face what Tarquin and the lost soldiers of the Ninth Platoon had faced – and so he endured the grit that swept through the air, imagining the report of rifles shattering the silence, the dull roars of the Reaper abominations, the chatter of Cerberus comms – the ghosts of dead turians lost amongst dead ruins.

      He could scarcely believe that such a nightmare had ever taken place here.  Months after the war, the Kelphic Valley was unrecognizable - or soon would be - in relation to the vids he’d seen.  Much of the rubble had been torn away, replaced by the foundations of a burgeoning metropolis.  The disparate krogan who had clustered in the area had come together, clans and creeds immaterial, to begin anew.  Most buildings were incomplete, but the progress was significant – incredible, really – given the devastation that had once been their inheritance.

     Carefully tended greenery broke up the grey and sable of the landscape.  Precious, drought-resistant plants endemic to Tuchanka had been rediscovered, and hearty asari imports, a gift in good faith, now bloomed alongside them.  This was Tarquin’s legacy.  All this life on a barren world.  These people would be dead.  These children would never have been borne of these parents.  Beyond the inchoate spires of krogan architecture, the broken and jagged remains of a long ago civilization – and the Reaper invasion force – provided an ominous, looming reminder of the losses, the horrors that had occurred not far from here.  It hovered over the living, like the hungry maw of the dead…but it was no longer strong enough to claim them.  They were safe.

     Even so, he knew the remains of the ancient bomb lay somewhere in that sprawl.  He could not bear to face it.  Not yet.  Someday, perhaps, when he could forgive himself for the injustices that he had done to his son, he would stand over Tarquin’s eternal grave and say the words that he now never could.  The apologies that could never be offered.  Express the feelings that he had too often suppressed, or kept hidden. You were my pride and joy.

  …Tarquin’s body had never been found.  Adrien had never expected it to be.  The Commander had witnessed his sacrifice with her own eyes, had seen him buried beneath tonnes of rubble and warped steel, the crush and press of rock, the isolated explosion as he had died.

     Adrien turned away.  Perhaps he was weaker for it, but he could not bear it.  He would not.  Not now.  He hadn’t the will to face such things for a while yet.  His own path to redemption was a long ways off. 

                            —- But this was odd.

      The figure of a turian on krogan soil was not one he had expected.  While they might now be allies, the animosity of centuries was not easily forgiven by either side.  He had not expected to find one of his own in such a remote place, notable only for the martyrdom of the Ninth Platoon.  Perhaps this was an aggrieved family member, come to show their respects for the lost.  He approached respectfully, eager to offer a word of comfort to an aggrieved family member, to empathize in the pain of loss.

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You did what?! || imperatorvictus

theroguesniper:

Victus’ calmness only fueled his anger. How the hell could he be so calm?! This was not okay. He hated it, he hated everything about this. He was no leader, certainly not Primarch material. High Command had lost their damn minds and were dragging him down with them.

Giving the Primarch a glare, he pushed off the table and turned around brusquely, turning his back on him. He started pacing, stopped, turned to look at Victus again.

“Qualified? Me?” he scoffed. His voice was an octave higher than it should have been, shrill and loaded with disbelief. “With all due respect, sir, have you lost your mind?!” He started pacing again.

Step, step, step, step, pivot; step, step, step, step, pivot again.

“You’re wrong. I’m not made to be a leader. Of any kind. Let alone a Primarch.” He’d been a leader before, and what had it gotten him? His entire team killed, all but one, the one who had betrayed him. He couldn’t lead. It had been his fault and he could not lead.

No. He wouldn’t have it. No. No, no, no, no, no.

He couldn’t have it. They couldn’t just place an entire colony cluster in his hands, not knowing who he was, what he had done. No. No more deaths in his hands. No more decisions weighing on his shoulders. 

He stopped again and fixed his eyes on Victus. “I was expecting to retire, sir.” 

Lies. He couldn’t have taken retiring. He was young, he still had his entire life ahead of him. Retiring would have driven him up the damn walls. Still, anything sounded better than the Primarchy.

Victus needed to understand. He had to make him see.

  He laced his hands together, resting them together on his desk, eyes keen but deceptively calm.  He allowed Vakarian his little tantrum.  It was hardly professional, but entirely justified.  Too much had been placed on his shoulders.  Not that he could not bear the burden – only that he should not have to.  Not after all he had done.

  “Garrus.” He finally broke through, his tone measured.  If he had any reservations, he did not express them now. “You’ve shown to High Command that you are more than capable of truly quality leadership.  Ironically, you would not be a Primarch now if you lacked such potential.  You know better than most how expectations do not often lead to realities.  You deserve better than this.  That, I grant you.  Believe me, I know the feeling of being trapped, being pulled from the place you belong.  I may not have the record you’ve made for yourself in the past few years, but I’ve been a soldier for a long time.  This is never how I imagined myself spending the middle years of my life.”

  He stood at last, slowly circling around his desk. “But I’m staying, for good.  I can accomplish a great deal in this position.  Progressive changes that our people need.  And you can do that, too.  Show them that you’re a hell of a turian.  You earned that much.”

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You did what?! || imperatorvictus

theroguesniper:

Stomp, stomp, stomp, stomp.

He was furious. Outraged. Completely in disbelief. What the hell?! He had received the message early in the morning; someone had sent a messenger to fetch him as he slept by her hospital bed.

He had slept in a terrible position —what the hell were those chairs made of?— and his everything hurt. Tired and bleary, he had blinked at the young and jittery officer they had sent to get him and scoffed at the datapad he had handed him.

“You got the wrong turian, kid.” He’d half-yawned, stretching, twisting his neck to try and ease off the pain. “I’m not Primarch. It’s— it’s probably— Victus you’re looking for.” More yawning, more trying fruitlessly to get his neck to stop aching.

To his surprise, though, the officer had stood his ground and told him that no, he did in fact have the right person, and that he was now Primarch.

That was all it had taken for Garrus to freeze, narrow his eyes at the young man, then stand up and quite literally push past him. He needed to have a word with Victus. Primarch his damn scaly ass.

Stomp, stomp, stomp, stomp. Slam.

He banged the door to Victus’ quarters open, unceremoniously letting himself in uninvited, and downright glared at the interior decorations, as he scanned the room for his aggressor. Because that was exactly what Victus was. His damned aggressor.

He found the Primarch sitting at a table, calmly surveying him. 

Garrus strode up to him, slammed his palms angrily on the table, and fixed the Primarch with the angriest look he could manage.

“It was you, wasn’t it?” His voice was icy cold, his subvocals betraying him to his rage. He did not care. 

    "Garrus. I was wondering when you’d arrive. I’d offer for you to sit down, but I see you’re not in the mood.” He’d stared down a raging clan chief, withstood heavy mortar fire during the Relay 314 Incident, outmaneuvered turian separatists on Taetrus, and weathered the Reaper War.  This angry tirade – expected, for what it was worth – was hardly going to unruffle him.

    Perhaps he was baiting the man, just a bit, but he had taken his post without passionate complaint.  Yes, Vakarian had been forced to leave his lover’s side, but Victus had been forced to leave a burning Palaven.  Sometimes, it was the sacrifices, not the victories, that made the soldier.

    “When the Primarchy met, your name was put forward by Caelstonia of Invictus.  I didn’t lie.  I spoke my mind, my belief few would be more qualified than you. I know you’ve more than earned your dues.  You helped the Commander save us all, but the Hierarchy is fragile.  For what it’s worth, I suggested that we waive your name as candidate, but I was overruled.  Take your anger out on me all you want, Vakarian,” he growled, “but it will not erase the fact that you’re the best damn turian out there, and that you will make a fine Primarch.”

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